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growler_south) wrote2006-09-26 04:15 am
growler_south) wrote2006-09-26 04:15 am
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You know those times when I get down, a little morose and phobic, and just want to lock myself away (and beat myself up for it), well.. this isnt one of those times. In fact, I'd almost swear this was the opposite.
It's good to be back. I've been largely happy over the last few years but not quite like this. This is my usual operating mode, and I like it.
I think I figured it out though: I'm not in love with anyone any more. I'm in love with everyone (some more than others, to be honest) but it's thrilling to be surrounded by so many friends and lovers, with no agenda but to share the ride.
It's good to be back. I've been largely happy over the last few years but not quite like this. This is my usual operating mode, and I like it.
I think I figured it out though: I'm not in love with anyone any more. I'm in love with everyone (some more than others, to be honest) but it's thrilling to be surrounded by so many friends and lovers, with no agenda but to share the ride.