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Nov. 27th, 2003 11:46 amNice warm bed last night (as anticipated), a good mate came round and stayed the night, both of us appreciated the intimacy without complication.
No word from Taz lately, last I head he was staying at his mother-in-laws and enjoying spending some time with his daughter. At least, as he said, she loves him unconditionally. Not sure if that was a dig at me or a hint that he might finally understand the situation- i never claimed to love unconditionally.
Last weekend was particularly pleasant, a rematch with R&M to make up for the disastrous previous weekend when Taz called and called and I just ended up feeling guilty for having a good time. I used to go visit R&M when I needed some time out, some time to relax. And as such it was a coping mechanism, which tended to make my visits less enjoyable than they should have been. The imminent return to stressful reality always put a damper on my enjoyment. Not this time though!
Its odd, i keep expecting to discover some emotional flaw, some reaction to the breakup- a rebound, a bit of irrationalty, some instability, but its not happening. One advantage of an open relationship I guess is that you learn the difference between love and sex, lovers and friends. Im definitely not in the market for another lover/relationship but sex and intimacy is always good.
No word from Taz lately, last I head he was staying at his mother-in-laws and enjoying spending some time with his daughter. At least, as he said, she loves him unconditionally. Not sure if that was a dig at me or a hint that he might finally understand the situation- i never claimed to love unconditionally.
Last weekend was particularly pleasant, a rematch with R&M to make up for the disastrous previous weekend when Taz called and called and I just ended up feeling guilty for having a good time. I used to go visit R&M when I needed some time out, some time to relax. And as such it was a coping mechanism, which tended to make my visits less enjoyable than they should have been. The imminent return to stressful reality always put a damper on my enjoyment. Not this time though!
Its odd, i keep expecting to discover some emotional flaw, some reaction to the breakup- a rebound, a bit of irrationalty, some instability, but its not happening. One advantage of an open relationship I guess is that you learn the difference between love and sex, lovers and friends. Im definitely not in the market for another lover/relationship but sex and intimacy is always good.
