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Jun. 4th, 2005 11:04 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
growler_southHad a fun night friday night, took Odran out for dinner at the food hall, followed by a brief visit to Hydrant (icky twinky bar, but convenient to the food hall...) Then it was home to watch a movie while we waited for Urge to open. Except we didnt end up going to Urge as it was too cold & rainy to bother getting out of bed. Waking up next to a furry snuggly man is something I haven't had for a while now, and I'd forgotten how nice it is. (VERY nice, in case you're wondering. But somehow upsetting too- I want this every day).
Breakfast was at Benediction, 11am until 1.30pm, and then Odran and Paul3 went off to the gym. I popped upstairs to visit Paul1, and thats where I've been until now.
I was meant to work on the car- take engine parts to Dad's house in Devonport, but it's too cold and dark to be bothered. Instead Paul1, Alan and I watched Riddick (mmm Vin Diesel...) and ate crisps. Lovely. Odrana and Paul3 joined us later for a viewing of Bad Santa and burgers, while Alan had a nap that went right through the movie, poor bugger...
And now I'm home, after a long lazy day, depressed as all hell and just wishing this long, cold, lonely weekend would just hurry up and finish so I can get back to mindless routine.
Work, eat, wank, sleep. Repeat. No think. No feel. No dream.
Breakfast was at Benediction, 11am until 1.30pm, and then Odran and Paul3 went off to the gym. I popped upstairs to visit Paul1, and thats where I've been until now.
I was meant to work on the car- take engine parts to Dad's house in Devonport, but it's too cold and dark to be bothered. Instead Paul1, Alan and I watched Riddick (mmm Vin Diesel...) and ate crisps. Lovely. Odrana and Paul3 joined us later for a viewing of Bad Santa and burgers, while Alan had a nap that went right through the movie, poor bugger...
And now I'm home, after a long lazy day, depressed as all hell and just wishing this long, cold, lonely weekend would just hurry up and finish so I can get back to mindless routine.
Work, eat, wank, sleep. Repeat. No think. No feel. No dream.
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Date: 2005-06-04 01:02 pm (UTC)Love you sexy...
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Date: 2005-06-04 01:50 pm (UTC){{{{{Belly rub}}}}}
Date: 2005-06-04 11:41 am (UTC)I hate to see you sad like this.
I wish I could separate all the lonely out of your life. Anything is tolerable as long as one doesn't have lonely to intensify all the negativity. To me, it seems like it layers in just enough desperation into everything one does to make it all seem futile.
I know, as well as you, that this will pass and from it you'll extract some lovely gem of knowledge and strength.
In the midst of my most recent lowest low I had two seemingly innocuous things act as a springboard. First, came the fortune cookie (I know this sounds laughable). The fortune read: "You will pass a difficult test that will make you happier." For some reason, I took it to heart. Second, was a brief correspondence with a buddy of mine in Toronto. Essentially, he gave me a verbal beatdown. He wasn't being mean or hurtful, I could tell that he had my best interest in mind. However, he wasn't giving me a warm, fuzzy hug either. It was kind of like the pep talk a good coach would give a team that getting their asses kicked. Firm, no nonsense and perhaps delivered like a drill sargeant.
You know the way something can just click in your head to make you sad? Those two things made something in my head click to make me happy, and I know that it'll happen to you.
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Date: 2005-06-04 01:00 pm (UTC)Love you mate...
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