Empathy.

[growler_south]

So tonight what did I get up to?
I betrayed my parents, and all they have taught me about love. I betrayed my morals, my own beliefs about what is right and what is wrong. I abandoned thought and caring, I abandoned my connection to everyone I care for.

To do this, I insulted and hurt one of my dearest friends. I made a cheap joke without considering that he might find offense, without the slightest thought given to how it might affect him, without even stopping to wonder that my own mind could *think* such a thing, let alone find it amusing.

Love is hard work, and I'm nowhere near perfect, but I just wish I could have discovered this particular imperfection with someone I love a little less.

I've never been more sorry for anything in my life, yet I know that sorry doesnt make it any better.

:-(

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

A tree is known by its fruit - a man by his deeds. A good deed is never lost - he who sows courtesy reaps friendship, and he who plants kindness gathers love. Since nothing we intend is ever faultless, and nothing we attempt ever without error, and nothing we achieve without some measure of finitude and fallibility we call humanness, we are saved by forgiveness.

Your friend loves you and will forgive you. Give it some time. Find it in your heart now to forgive yourself. You will be okay. Promise. *Big Hug* --E