growler_south

...knows his strength and stays within it. The foolish man overestimates his strength, and then wonders why he falls apart.

I feel pretty foolish right now.

I need a hug.

Sorry, that was a bit cryptic wasnt it. Basically, I had a great time in TeAroha, loved seeing Mo and Saffy and (briefly) zombie Rick (he was zoned out on migraine drugs, poor bugger), but for some silly reason I thought I would be ok as I left to come home. I wasnt. Driving out of the town I know so well, knowing that things have changed and that its not my 'home' any more, brought all the sadness back. Sadness I thought I had dealt with weeks ago. I miss the boys. I still love them. I'm still mourning for the dreams that have died. But its ok- this is the way things will be for a while, and theyll get better. They *are* getting better.
Thankyou for all the hugs and thoughts, I had urgent phonecalls last night instructing me to come round to a friend's place, where I had hugs and pizza and a great deal of love. And this morning a concerned message from Mo, making sure I was ok. :-)