Fine.

[growler_south]

Upcoming trip to SF is becoming a stress, complete with Personal Drama (tm), money worries, time pressure, expectations of sexual favours, and work-induced guilt. It seems no matter what I do, how precise the schedule is, how clever I think I am fitting everything in, I'm going to disapoint someone. Furr, the movie boys, Boof, Greg, Jeff, Robbie n Fish, Brian, and my dearly beloved Erich. And yes, it's all my own fault, and future posts will attempt to explain why I'm so stressed out.

Nevertheless, I'm *this* close to cashing in my airline ticket and just going and sitting beside a lake in Alaska for 2 weeks.

With my phone turned off.

(yes, thats how serious I am.)

UPDATE: Yeah ok, so I'm not going to abandon you all- I'd only end up resenting wherever I went because I'd missed out on SF. And I really do want to spend time with my friends there- it'll just be on MY terms. Its my holiday, dammit!! ;-)

Comments

[paddygrappler.livejournal.com]

so my status as the only porn star in the village may not be under threat?

[growler-south.livejournal.com]

Its not under threat- seeng how embarassed you are now is a small part of my decision not to go ahead with it.

[furr-a-bruin.livejournal.com]

The response I got to a few naked photos in BEAR convinced me that I'd never ever want to do a porn flick.

[paddygrappler.livejournal.com]

My porn time was brief and yes i did regret it straight after. i dont mind it know, the main embarassment is how skinny i looked and my "acting" skills leave a lot to be desired.
if asked now i probably would do it again...