Fine.

[growler_south]

Upcoming trip to SF is becoming a stress, complete with Personal Drama (tm), money worries, time pressure, expectations of sexual favours, and work-induced guilt. It seems no matter what I do, how precise the schedule is, how clever I think I am fitting everything in, I'm going to disapoint someone. Furr, the movie boys, Boof, Greg, Jeff, Robbie n Fish, Brian, and my dearly beloved Erich. And yes, it's all my own fault, and future posts will attempt to explain why I'm so stressed out.

Nevertheless, I'm *this* close to cashing in my airline ticket and just going and sitting beside a lake in Alaska for 2 weeks.

With my phone turned off.

(yes, thats how serious I am.)

UPDATE: Yeah ok, so I'm not going to abandon you all- I'd only end up resenting wherever I went because I'd missed out on SF. And I really do want to spend time with my friends there- it'll just be on MY terms. Its my holiday, dammit!! ;-)

Comments

[growler-south.livejournal.com]

Except maybe for that video bit.

Not even the video bit- I've had to make a decision based on how I feel *now*. Sure, 12 months ago I was really into the idea, but nowdays I'm not so keen- and that means no. Boof's going to be SO pissed at me...

[sinnabor.livejournal.com]

Boof's going to be SO pissed at me...

He'll be a perverted redhead with an adorable accent in San Francisco - he won't have time to be pissed. He'll have to beat them off with a stick.

[f8n-begorra.livejournal.com]

I'm sure we could find a stunt-butt double in notime flat

[boofbiker.livejournal.com]

If only that was true! from what people say online to what they actually do in person is 2 different things.

[paddygrappler.livejournal.com]

so my status as the only porn star in the village may not be under threat?

[growler-south.livejournal.com]

Its not under threat- seeng how embarassed you are now is a small part of my decision not to go ahead with it.

[furr-a-bruin.livejournal.com]

The response I got to a few naked photos in BEAR convinced me that I'd never ever want to do a porn flick.

[paddygrappler.livejournal.com]

My porn time was brief and yes i did regret it straight after. i dont mind it know, the main embarassment is how skinny i looked and my "acting" skills leave a lot to be desired.
if asked now i probably would do it again...

[boofbiker.livejournal.com]

You should no me better than that. I would not get pissed at you for saying no. Disappointed yes as I have been looking forward to it. But not pissed. Even if I was pissed I would be over it in 5 minutes. Well At least we have more spare time to do things.

[growler-south.livejournal.com]

I know you well enough to know you'd be a *little* grumpy... but that you wouldnt mind in the long run. Thankyou for being so understanding on the phone- you're the best!

:-)

[boofbiker.livejournal.com]

I am always grumpy when things dont go my way. Guess we will have to make our own private video!