Fine.

[growler_south]

Upcoming trip to SF is becoming a stress, complete with Personal Drama (tm), money worries, time pressure, expectations of sexual favours, and work-induced guilt. It seems no matter what I do, how precise the schedule is, how clever I think I am fitting everything in, I'm going to disapoint someone. Furr, the movie boys, Boof, Greg, Jeff, Robbie n Fish, Brian, and my dearly beloved Erich. And yes, it's all my own fault, and future posts will attempt to explain why I'm so stressed out.

Nevertheless, I'm *this* close to cashing in my airline ticket and just going and sitting beside a lake in Alaska for 2 weeks.

With my phone turned off.

(yes, thats how serious I am.)

UPDATE: Yeah ok, so I'm not going to abandon you all- I'd only end up resenting wherever I went because I'd missed out on SF. And I really do want to spend time with my friends there- it'll just be on MY terms. Its my holiday, dammit!! ;-)

Comments

[sinnabor.livejournal.com]

Dude, I'm not even gonna be in town. How are you possibly going to disappoint me? :-)

Everybody knows you're on holiday. Schedule things so you have something to look forward to, but realize that everyone is going to be overjoyed just to see you, and you don't need to shag like a trained monkey.

Except maybe for that video bit.

Deep breath. Relax. It's San Francisco in raging hot September. It'll be fun. Two weeks is practically forever.

[growler-south.livejournal.com]

Except maybe for that video bit.

Not even the video bit- I've had to make a decision based on how I feel *now*. Sure, 12 months ago I was really into the idea, but nowdays I'm not so keen- and that means no. Boof's going to be SO pissed at me...

[sinnabor.livejournal.com]

Boof's going to be SO pissed at me...

He'll be a perverted redhead with an adorable accent in San Francisco - he won't have time to be pissed. He'll have to beat them off with a stick.

[f8n-begorra.livejournal.com]

I'm sure we could find a stunt-butt double in notime flat

[boofbiker.livejournal.com]

If only that was true! from what people say online to what they actually do in person is 2 different things.

[paddygrappler.livejournal.com]

so my status as the only porn star in the village may not be under threat?

[growler-south.livejournal.com]

Its not under threat- seeng how embarassed you are now is a small part of my decision not to go ahead with it.

[furr-a-bruin.livejournal.com]

The response I got to a few naked photos in BEAR convinced me that I'd never ever want to do a porn flick.

[paddygrappler.livejournal.com]

My porn time was brief and yes i did regret it straight after. i dont mind it know, the main embarassment is how skinny i looked and my "acting" skills leave a lot to be desired.
if asked now i probably would do it again...

[boofbiker.livejournal.com]

You should no me better than that. I would not get pissed at you for saying no. Disappointed yes as I have been looking forward to it. But not pissed. Even if I was pissed I would be over it in 5 minutes. Well At least we have more spare time to do things.

[growler-south.livejournal.com]

I know you well enough to know you'd be a *little* grumpy... but that you wouldnt mind in the long run. Thankyou for being so understanding on the phone- you're the best!

:-)

[boofbiker.livejournal.com]

I am always grumpy when things dont go my way. Guess we will have to make our own private video!